"Robert Thomas Journal"

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March 17,     

     The picture above is an old Koa tree on the Big Island. We use Koa to make many of our picture frames for the gallery. I took this picture in the middle of the island on an old farm road.  You have to really be in the mood for a long drive to get across Mana Road. It is about a six hour drive to travel the road and make a circle back to Kona. Koa has been historically used in making Hawaiian canoes ,tables,fish hooks and and many other things. I feel that Hawaii is another garden of Eden. The Hawaiian people have been blessed. As a non native Hawaiian I feel privileged to paint one of the most beautiful places in the world. Everything in Hawaii is sacred to the Hawaiian people. I believe if I am given the opportunity to live in such a beautiful place I need to give something back. I attempt to give back to Hawaii by painting all of its beauty. I try to capture present and past memories forever on canvas.  I don't want to take anything from Hawaii, it has already given me so much. Aloha to Hawaii and all its wonderful people. 

March 21

The picture above is me at 4:00 am after 18 hrs of a all day and night photo shoot on the Big Island. Tired as always. The volcano is one of my favorite places to get next to the real Hawaii. I love it when someone asks me while I am painting the volcano, "Have you ever really seen it that close?" So many questions. Its a painting. But yes these are from my personal experiences over many years of hiking and photographing many different eruptions. Paintings can be dreams, visions, real life experiences or just made up. I like to paint from my imagination and my experiences. Art can be just about anything. To me my art is my personal expression of the things I love. Saying that, I will probally start painting portraits of my wife and kids some day. By the way I have two grandkids now. Gabriel and Melody Mello and one more boy on the way. This year I will be celebrating two weddings. My daughter Liz and my son Michael. Both are blessed to have found their very special life partners

March 27, 2006

Tragedy in Paradise

     It has been raining for two weeks. I woke up this morning at 4:15 hearing a loud crash on the highway that was followed by several other crashes one after another. Not a good way to wake up. My heart hurt all day not knowing if anyone was hurt. I called 911 and later learned that one person was killed. It was another eye opener to the fact that life is to be lived like there is no tomorrow. My daughter had gone out last night and just arrived home an hour earlier. I try to tell my kids to be very carefull driving these Hawaiian highways at night. So many accidents occur with all the drinking and careless drivers. 50% percent of the drivers in Hawaii are uninsured. My other daughter Nicole was hit by a truck two weeks ago. The driver was uninsured and thank God no one was hurt. Nobody likes to hear about stuff like this and I sure don't like talking about it, but I am a dad and if I could change the laws I would give drunk drivers a minimum of two years in jail for driving while under the influence of drugs and alcohol. That includes prescription drugs.   

    Raising my kids in Hawaii has been great for my family, but I don't let myself think that all is well and nothing bad will ever happen in Paradise. I lived my life in a state of denial before I began to look at reality. I then began a long search for truth. Trusting God and believing in His ability to protect and direct my life was not what I was looking for, but was what I found. Some of my best friends still laugh at the fact that I am a solid Christian and don't live my life the way I used to. If there is something funny it is that I wasn't ever really honest with myself and the mess I was making of my life. I worked hard, I loved the things I did and I was happy with all the challenges that life presented me, but I was not honest with my own inner turmoil. If I made mistakes I just didn't look back and think about it. I thought everyone has problems and who is perfect anyway. If I was to die in a car accident I would fare as well as the next person if there was a time of accounting to God for my life. After all I was doing my best and I wasn't doing many of the awful things others were destroying their lives with. After all most of all the bad things in this world don't involve me. If you listen carefully you will see that it was really just my way of saying I really don't believe in God. Who really knows the truth about God.  But something inside of me did want to know if God was really real. If he was real I really didn't know who to listen to. Then someone told me to listen to what Jesus said about God. What an amazing statement. Listen to what Jesus said. I could do that. I couldn't trust churches, people who claimed that they had the answer, or even famous preachers, gurus, saints, but Jesus that was different, I had a place in my heart for Him. I had always thought I could trust Jesus with my life. I had never listened to him speak. But just how accurate is the Bible about recording what Jesus said. I should read it. I knew I would not listen to mere religion but I would listen and decide for myself if what I read was really inspired. I love listening and  tearing apart all the self righteous politicians and news broadcasters. I like to read inbetween the lines and see if I can pick out their little lies. I tried it with the Bible and I now have my own feelings about Jesus and what he says about God. Now just how hard was that. I can quote verses but that would not help anyone. But I can point to the Bible and let you make up your own mind. After all it is easy to say I have already read the book and I still don't believe in anything other than myself. It takes a fresh look with a mind that is not already made up. It might take a while deciding if knowing God is really worth the trouble doing a little daily reading for a couple of weeks. I know that the person that died this morning in that crash wouldn't have hesitated if he or she had known that today was the last day of their life. I also want to keep praying for the young 22 year old girl that was driving drunk. 

Aloha and I will write again in a few days.

Check out www.wetcanvas.com  I am offering a free class on Dolphins in Acrylic for kids. I will also be learning to put video up on the website for short demonstrations.

I have two grandkids and they will be returning from Brazil tomorrow April 19th. They are the greatest. I will give them some more painting lessons as they are loving art. I was directly influenced by my mother at a very young age. She was an impressionistic pallet knife painter. I didn't think much of impressionism at all. I am loving it now.

April 21

     My grandkids are here and I am fully having fun with them.  Now back to painting. Nothing replaces practice. The older I get the more I need. LOL Well something like that. Wine gets better with age but I get better with loving what ever I do and working at it all the time. I meet different people from all over the world each and every day in the Gallery. I get so many questions about painting that someday I will have to write a book and just hand it out at the Gallery to save time. Actually I do have DVD's to teach my art classes with. So instead of talking about me, myself, and what makes me so hopelessly boring I want to talk about how someone can take their art to the next step and start to actually make a living with it. Oh, I forgot someone told me that artists shouldn't let anyone know that they were actually making a living at doing what they love. Labor of Love. Starving artist sendrum.

 I am talking to the artist that wants to be the very best. It takes time. Dedicated time. Every painting I do is a million dollars to me. Now that is serious if you can imagine. Why not do your best and forget about how long it takes to improve your work and make a buck. Double talk? No. Just being honest. If you want to make a very good living with your art you have to start with becoming the best you can be and that is always like chasing a rabbit. You will always have room to improve if you are serious about your work. Some artists I know have just  trying and are content to just sell enough work to pay the bills. How boring to me. Who would go to school for six years to end up working at a low paying job after all that. If you are quit going to just paint to have fun than skip this chapter and go on to the next where I am talking about the love of art and the great fun it is to be creative.  Being content is good if you are always striving after a higher hill. But if the boat is sinking and you stay to content you just might have to learn to swim. Raising six kids and keeping them happy as an artist in Hawaii has taken time and effort. For you to really make it as an artist in this new age of hi-tech power house computer generated digital competition you will need to both learn the basics of eye to hand Old Master techniques and computer savvy editing and printing. So first concentrate on learning and practicing every day. I taught myself most of what I know by just experimenting. But you can save many years of trail and error by going to school or finding someone to help you.  If you can study with an other artist you will learn at a faster pace. I like to teach new artists and get myself excited about how well they do. It's not all about myself. I am competitive and need to know where I stand among other artists also. There are plenty of better artists every where you turn. It excites me and makes me want to get busy and become better so that my work isn't always the same as so many of the other artists. I hate it when someone looks at my work and says "Oh that looks so much like so and so's work." Here is one of the statements I hate the most. Your work looks just like Kinkaid. He is a master at what he does and I am happy to be different and not at all happy to be the same as someone else. We all learn from each other and our own style emerges over time. It's not enough to be better than so and so, but I want to be different from so many other artists I know. Learn from many but become your own person and personality as an artist. Does that mean you won't look like just another seascape painter or landscape painter at first? No, you probably will look the same at first just like me and many others. But in time you will grow into who only you can be. It is much easier to copy other artist at first. Try copying nature or your own imagination but don't worry if it takes four or five years to be truly an individual. Most of my work starts by looking a little to much like one artist or another, but in time I go past the learning stage and it's my own. But don't let me fool you. I still learn from others and I still look to much like other artists. It is an ongoing process. I remember the painful experience of painting outside with so many different people watching me and someone in the crowd sarcastically stating that, "Why doesn't he paint something everyone else is not already painting. In other words I looked just to familiar to them. It will happen to you also. So be ready to take a beating if you don't eventually have a style of your own. I am now learning portrait painting and sure enough I look like another artist down the street at this time. But I will learn and become different. We all have our own artistic expression and yes we need to learn to be different. That is not to say that forging an old master painting can't be really a challenge. It is and we should try it if we want but be sure to give credit do to whom it belongs.

June 10, 2006

It has been a few months since I had a chance to write. 

  It is October 14, 2006.

 Life is so great. Every day is a new opportunity to reach out and make things better than the day before. I just spent a week in Honolulu. My favorite city. My wife and I walked all over Hotel Street and met so may wonderful elderly people of all nationalities and backgrounds. Life is different for the older generation. We were lost and trying to find our way back to the airport and it was amazing to see five and six older people all trying to tell us what bus to take and where to catch it. It took us two hours to find the right bus stop and we were only a block away at any one point. But everyone was so helpful. You would have to see it to believe it. Hotel street is a type of old China town but very poor and humble elderly people are there and all trying to make it on their low incomes. It actually took us three and a half hours to get to the airport. I learned that when someone tries to help it is the love that counts. I was in one of those low times of my life where it would not feel good at all to judge someone because of their inability to give directions. I have been so stupid so many times in being upset because of the slightest mistake someone else makes. I had a heart problem and was medi-vaced from the Big Island to Oahu. Life seemed so short and I wasn't sure how much time I had left. I'm so young I thought. God why me now. I am still not sure of all what happened but I am sure that I want to live my live to the fullest and not waste a moment. It has been two weeks and yes I still find that my resolutions to be better are far from what it takes to actually change me. And if a scare like that won't change me what will. The old Beetle song about love is the answer keeps rolling over in my mind. But change doesn't happen over night. By the way my heart problem is a blessing in the sense it really shook me up and made me think. October 15 Well I am sure everyone has already heard what happened in Kona today. It was all over the news. We just had a major earthquake. Actually two earth quakes one 6.7 and an other 5.9 and many after shocks. It got my attention again. Life is short. Loving the family I have is what is important for me today. All I know is I feel more alive today than I did yesterday. That said I still would like to just go back to having fun painting and living in paradise.

Nov. 15

   I am doing much better. Still amazed at how quick my kids have grown up and how fast I have grown older. Life is amazing. You think you know it all and no sooner do you learn something new and then all of a sudden you find you still know so little. Health is important and I want to keep painting and teaching in Kona and I am sure I will if God is gracious to me and I keep a healthy life style. No smoking no excessive drinking, eating good, plenty of exercise, and just plain living to the fullest and when the day is over getting plenty of rest. You spend your whole life thinking you are in control but one slight heart problem and you start to think it's not you but God who makes the decisions on when you live and when you die. It is so easy to just forget the scare I had and go back to living and thinking like nothing can stop me. We all end the same way and it is not foolish to think about God once and awhile. Our currency says in God we trust so why not do it. Well, enough of that and now I want to just love my family more and learn to love the people I am around and not think about myself so much. I am again demonstrating painting daily in Kona and hope you can come and watch for a little the next time you come to Kona.

Nov. 22

   Back to painting. I really want to document and share my painting styles and secrets to new artists. The first thing I notice with people is they think they can get something without really working on it. " Just show me how to paint and I will be an artist."  It doesn't work that way. Becoming anything is a process. Art is no different. You first need to take out your pencil and start sketching every thing you see. Start with things that interest you. Keep it simple. Again go to www.wetcanvas.com and teach yourself to draw first and then paint. I am going to paste two new paintings  here and I would like you to look at them carefully and see how simple I have kept it. My paintings done in this style are not precision but fun. They are loose and colorful. But far from realistic. At first taking chances and just painting what gives you a little laugh is better than painting subjects that are far to difficult for the beginner. Take a small section of any one of these three paintings and blow it up and look at the loose brush strokes.